Lately, I’ve had quite a time with anxiety and just feeling down. It’s not something debilitating. In fact, it’s not even something that I was going to mention. But today I went to visit my doctor and he made me feel so much better about my health in general that I decided to start writing down all of the things that make me happy. Once I started thinking of things, I honestly couldn’t stop – what a great exercise, really. I started by posting them as my Facebook status today, and when the responses from people started to make me laugh, or sigh, or just remember WHY I have such great friends, I just wanted to write more about it.
It’s really the little things, I guess. I was talking with my Aunt Karen yesterday about how we are always looking for the next big thing to come along. How, even when we have amazing moments (the example we both thought about was sitting on the beach recently) we were still thinking about the next better thing that might happen. I guess it’s just our American way to think about stuff like this. So I started focusing about all the little things that I see or hear or smell each day that make me happy. Things I often look over with the hope that bigger things might be on the horizon.
I started a list. I will continue to add to it – it’s simply something to remind me that there is happy all around me. I just need to look more closely…
The smell of sunscreen. Swimming at night. A great glass of wine. A snuggly blanket and a good book. Scoring a new, bestseller at the library before anyone else. Bright red nail polish. Ludacris (please don’t ask me why he makes me smile every time I hear him!) Thunderstorms. Seashells. Clean sheets. Getting dressed up for a night out. Fancy heels. Finding the perfect swimsuit. Doritos. Cheetos. Long talks on the phone with friends. Long talks anywhere with friends. Fart jokes. I stole this one from my cousin Amanda: the phrase, “to the window! To the wall!” – makes me laugh every time. Bacon. Hot air balloons. My writing project friends. Preschoolers. Old school R&B music. Full bookshelves. The Jersey Shore (what?!) Cinnamon toast. Coffee with real cream. Black dogs. Hats, in general. Bridges – but not being under them, only going across them, I don’t know why. Bow ties. Naked baby butts. Reading out loud to an attentive audience. Boat rides. My sister. Singing out loud – REALLY loudly. Road trips. New blue jeans. Fireflies.
I just realized that I could probably go on with this until I bored each of you to death. It’s not my intention to do that and I plan to continue with this “project” of sorts. I hope it inspires you as well. Also? Sadly, maybe? When I check my Google analytics and see that people are actually reading this stuff? That makes me happy, too. Thanks a bunch.